Feeling so detached from everything and anyone. Why don't I have family that feels like a family. Why couldn't I ever feel safe in that house. Why couldn't I call it home. Why did I need to move out in order to save myself? Why do I have to live on my own when I'm 18. How come I dont have any friends? I'm the most honest, funniest, and loyal person I can be. I try my hardest to be the best person I can ever be. I work on my mental heath everyday to better my future with anyone and myself. I try so hard to lead a happy life. Why is it that I live on my own now and still feel just as lonely as I did in that house full of people. That's depressing. I'm depressing. I don't have anyone but my partner. I dont have friends or family. It takes such a toll on me.. I just want to hang out and have some fun. Someone to have adventures and laugh with. I want a friend. I'm so tired of being alone. Its killing me that I have no one but my partner. They can only do so much. They can only fill so much of that void. I'm dying inside. I can feel it.
Happy Birthday. I don’t even know if you still use this page. But I wish things worked out between us and that I could’ve been there for all the other birthdays. I still think about you. I miss you. But I know that I don’t even know you anymore.
ReplyDeleteI have limerence for you, Or I love you. I dont know. All I know is that I yearn for you.
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