Why was I given life just to be abused. Abused by everyone. My family, friends, and partners.. I just want to be happy, I just want love. I'm miserable here

why am I still here?

At this point I wish I would die from some natural cause. I feel lifeless most days. My head is constantly hurting from the aching pain of being alive. I hate it here. I hate this planet. I hate my life. I have no one. I have nothing. I wasn't meant to live, it's not for me.