I've started a will and i can't stop my intrusive suicidal thoughts. I keep reasoning with ending my life. I keep telling myself i don't hold much weight in anyone's life to stay. I don't have much value, right?.
I kill myself and poof it's over. I no longer exist, i no longer can think and feel. It would be infinite rest.
I can't keep stressing over money, work, and life.
I am not made for this. I feel so sick inside. Inside my head i feel impending doom for myself.
It's a bit sad I've come to this point but is it really so bad? i keep saying this but i am just tired.
I ruin everything i touch and i don't want to keep causing further burden in people's lives. I keep trying to be better but it isn't enough, or i fail, or etc.. I'm so tired. I want to rest.
