I Have Depression

 I have depression and this isn't something I've been able to so publicly say until recently. I have depression .. recurrent, severe, and I'll ever hear is it'll get better.. you're fine stop, lying you have nothing to be depressed about. Why? because I have to good of a life to suffer from such a pathetic illness? I often hear, "isn't Depression just when you're really really sad?" I feel my heart pound faster and faster and I become slightly enraged as i look into the eyes of this clueless person Denying their ignorance .. but who am I kidding you don't know what it's like to hear the voices, or the lies, you don't feel the weight that is crushing me inside.. because I hide. Depression is look at this indulgence in your sadness, but no one would choose to feel this way.. Just picture yourself opening your eyes every morning and wishing you hadn't woken up at all.. no not because of the dreadful thought of school. I am talking about a consistent routine of your body feeling paralyzed like there a boulders on your shoulders, you feel a sharp pain in your chest, the pounding in your head, the voices telling you go back to bed... Rest assured this inability to move it's not from the lack of trying, I try to explain but your words are denying. However, despite all of your ignorant and hateful comments echoing in my mind, till this day I am in a continuous search to try and find my absolute piece of mind. - c.f