Dear _______.
I'll never understand why you abused me. I'll never understand why I wasn't good enough. I'll never understand how you could hurt someone so much and not feel sick about it. I gave you my 100% from start to finish. And through it all you cheated, abused, and manipulated me. You stripped me of everything. Things are so bad I've contemplated suicide too often for comfort. I keep having nightmares, panic attacks, and melt downs. So many things trigger me. I was so good to you. I loved you. I love you. I would've done anything for you and you walked all over me. You did things without my consent, you took my dignity, my strength, and my power. You took it all away. And to this day you laugh about it. meanwhile I can barely write this. You manipulated and abused me so badly that I'm afraid to be me. To love. To be social. I don't even want to live. You haunt me everyday. You are still eating away at my brain even when we are apart. How could you hurt someone who was so pure and loving to you. seriously I was so beautifully good to you. HOW COULD YOU!!!!!!! TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING LIVE
I'll never understand why you abused me. I'll never understand why I wasn't good enough. I'll never understand how you could hurt someone so much and not feel sick about it. I gave you my 100% from start to finish. And through it all you cheated, abused, and manipulated me. You stripped me of everything. Things are so bad I've contemplated suicide too often for comfort. I keep having nightmares, panic attacks, and melt downs. So many things trigger me. I was so good to you. I loved you. I love you. I would've done anything for you and you walked all over me. You did things without my consent, you took my dignity, my strength, and my power. You took it all away. And to this day you laugh about it. meanwhile I can barely write this. You manipulated and abused me so badly that I'm afraid to be me. To love. To be social. I don't even want to live. You haunt me everyday. You are still eating away at my brain even when we are apart. How could you hurt someone who was so pure and loving to you. seriously I was so beautifully good to you. HOW COULD YOU!!!!!!! TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING LIVE
This isn’t who you wrote this for. But sometimes I wonder if you remember me.
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