Cloudy Thoughts

   As I stare into the mirror i look at myself and admire my youth, as it will soon be gone. A sense of reality overflows my mind as i begin to think about how life goes on without a care in the world for anyone. Doesn't that suck? In a way it gives life no meaning.. It is very crazy knowing that in a blink of an eye i will soon be the age of 35 most likely experiencing a mid-life crisis. Life is beautiful even with all the hardships that I experience, I still find myself appreciating life. I am constantly contemplating my everyday decisions, It becomes depressing at times.. but i suppose the constant flow of thoughts is what keeps me on my feet or does it weigh me down? i can't tell for myself. i am in a constant state of depression. However, i've found ways to temporarily depart from my depression. That being sports, drawing, and reading. which ever activity i choose to do i find myself in a state of relief and comfort. Thank goodness i've found ways to cope with my depression, lately my juvenile thoughts have been bombarding me. My clouded mind is craving sunlight.